Keep Your Head Low (Hadestown)

    "If you wanna keep your head, keep your head low." 

    "Wait for me, I'm coming, too."

    "If it's true what they say, I'll be on my way."

    My mind is rampant. I wish to fall asleep. My head is reeling and all I want is peace, oh please. An emptiness of rest and the blissfulness of night. The comfort of an empty head, the security of a blanketed bed. I want the pain to stop. I want to go away. Not forever, no. Only for today. I want to hop into a void and wait 'till I'm ok. And yet I sit here waiting to help others instead. I'm stuck in a fucking loop that seems to have no way to break. 

    "Seeing as you've got nothing to lose."

    

    I want to rest for once, but I swear I don't want to die. Just go away for a while till it's finally quiet in my mind. I want it to be quiet, to finally know peace. Maybe I'm overthinking. I know I probably am. But my head is fucking reeling, and I just want some sleep man. I wish I could explain the turmoil in my mind. Yet everything is quiet and so loud at the same time. 

    I'm taking a break. I'm doing the right thing, but it feels so...wrong. It's the hero complex, it's the fear of hurting others. I know that, I do. Yet the alarms still ring in my ear that this is wrong. I should just persevere and help them all. They need me. I have to help, my issues can wait. No. No! I can't keep going. The break is the right thing to do. 

    I've just gotta convince myself of that...I hope that I can.

-Michael